Suicide Poem

Your son asked about you today,
I didn't know what to say.

Since the day you left, all we do is cry,
I still, don't understand why…

You should have held on, if not for you--then at least for me,
When you ended your life, you destroyed what was supposed to be…

Now your gone, and me and your son are left behind,
Peace--I am not sure---we'll ever find…

I know you were hurting, and in a dark place,
But you should have never given up--our son's tears I can't erase…

He begged you not to do it…He begged you to stay…
But you went ahead and left us behind anyway…

I can't help but see your eyes in his baby blues,
Or hate you just a little, for what he'll have to face because of what you couldn't do…

Its so hard--and now you'll never know,
What its like to hate the one you loved--for letting go…

When you ended your life…you killed a part of me--
And now I wonder will our son ever be free?

Your son asked about you today…
I didn't know what to say…

I can tell he's trying to be strong,
He holds back his tears--afraid he might upset his mama--and do something wrong…

He's had to put his feelings aside,
Because he's afraid I might too--commit suicide…

Like his daddy did,
When he was just a little kid…

Your son asked about you today,
I didn't know what to say….

I am going to survive this, you will see,
And one day--your son and I--we shall be free…

I am going to laugh--and play and even love again,
Although through this darkness--its hard to know how or when…

But I won't do to him, what you have done,
I will never give up on loving my son…

We could have beaten this together,
But now that chance is gone forever…

Your son asked about you today…
I didn't know what to say...

Dedicated to my very brave sister Kim, whose husband committed suicide...

True Cause of his death--in my opinion--Full blown loss of self--caused by codependency.

Written by Lisa A. Romano

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